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Goldilocks and the Three Bears (Part One)

Robert Flores tells the story of Goldilocks – so called not because he had golden blonde hair, but because his name was Godofredo Oro – whose curious wanderings oftentimes led him to less than savory situations that his parents did not exactly approve of.



DISCLAIMER: This is a piece of literary fiction, any similarity to anyone living, or dead, or somewhere in between, is purely coincidental and unintentional.

Once upon a time, there was a wide-eyed young twink called Goldilocks, not because he had golden blonde hair, but because his name was Godofredo Oro. Goldilocks also had an unnatural affinity for trouble, and his curious wanderings oftentimes led him to less than savory situations which his parents did not exactly approve of: Daddy and Mommy Oro (Businesspeople with contracts with government, both) were more than a little concerned that their bright, gay boy has been getting himself into trouble by frequenting places of ill repute. More than once, he was busted by his parents (and accordingly grounded) because he would get involved with the “fast and loose” set who partied in “Celsius” or “Consulate” or whatever hip little bar was during the vibrant, hedonistic late 1990s/early 2000s. He even had his face splashed all over the metro’s newspapers at one point, when he was one of the many people arrested and held for lewd behavior when “Group Showers”, a “Gentleman’s” bath house, was raided by the police.

Owing to their child’s wild streak, Daddy and Mommy Oro sent him off to some obscure retreat in the United States of America (Being former polestars of the Marcos era, and one of the very few “power couples” to ever survive the cultural upheaval that followed the EDSA Revolution, this is not at all difficult to do). Being appropriately well-to-do, young Goldilocks was safely (and discreetly) ensconced in the delightfully toney borough called Sta. Monica, in Southern California; far from the rest of his countrymen somewhere out there in places with names like Covina… City of Industry… Fullerton… Where there were growing Filipino communities which raise the risk of him being identified as an Oro.

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Daddy and Mommy Oro rationalized that little Goldilocks couldn’t do much damage being so far away, even when they realized later on that they placed him in such close proximity to Gay Central: West Hollywood. But they figured this would be a more acceptable solution than letting Goldilocks stay in Manila and stand to bring more shame and humiliation to the family.

For our twinkish hero, however, he was in heaven! Here he was, just barely legal, and living within minutes from WeHo! It was almost too good to be true! He immediately got to work, and work he did, earning himself a great amount of notoriety along Santa Monica Blvd. (And sometimes hopping over to the Silverlake neighborhood along Melrose) He was on fire. All the bartenders at Mickey’s knew him by name and always welcomed him with open arms, and a fair number of them with open flies. Yes, our little Goldilocks have gained THAT kind of a reputation, but it didn’t matter much: he was young, he was well-liked, and above all: he was rich. Never mind the fact that the money Daddy and Mommy Oro sent over were from less than legal means (As is always the case in the Philippines). So Goldilocks went his merry way, making new friends and living the Filipino-American dream, that of a well-heeled bachelor with a loft in Sta. Monica.

This all changed when Daddy Oro suddenly suffered a stroke and died. Which in itself wouldn’t be too bad… But this being the Philippines, of course it was subsequently leaked that good ol’ Daddy Oro, was playing Daddy to a young, up and coming matinee idol, who made a name for himself as an expert in mining for, well… Oro. In fact, it was later leaked to the gay grapevine that Daddy Oro suffered the stroke and died while playing “Hide the Sausage” with said matinee idol in the company fitness center. Thus, Goldilocks finds himself on the plane bound for Manila. At a loss of what to do after being away from the country for so long, he now pushes these thoughts to the back of his mind as he tried to endure the long-haul flight in the national flag carrier’s first class cabin, sipping a glass of bubbly. Mommy Oro insisted, no, demanded that young Goldilocks return to the Philippines immediately, her voice was so full of authority that Goldilocks had to stop blowing this built quarterback and listen to his mother’s shrill voice as he screened her call in his loft. He called her back the next day to tell her that he will be on the next plane bound for Manila after the quarterback finished his breakfast and went back to his dorm at UCLA.

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His mother did tell him about the less than kosher conditions of his Father’s death, about which he wasn’t really surprised at all. He had always wondered why his Father kept such attractive bodyguards about him, and the same has not gone unnoticed by the very staff in his office. He would walk from one place to the next with a veritable Roman phalanx of well-built, ruggedly handsome men he all bought gym memberships for… Using the corporate credit card. He also remembered that time when he caught his Father red-handed, handling something rather red in the men’s restroom at “The Quad”. He got himself a new car for his silence.

Goldilocks didn’t hate Daddy Oro, he in fact loved him dearly, but the conditions of his death presented a problem: This could very well end his wonderful days in the US with the never-ending stream of men he has grown accustomed to entertaining. This meant going back to a repressive society, where his name alone guarantees that he will never have a moment’s peace should he continue being gayer than sunshine. Before he knew it, the heat of Manila greeted him as he exited the doors of the plane where two of his Father’s bodyguards stood, patiently waiting for him. He lazily handed his cabin bag to one of them and walked ahead through the tube towards the airport.

Goldilocks couldn’t remember much about the wake, only that it was bizarre seeing Daddy Oro lying inside his coffin, and a certain matinee idol who was conspicuously absent. He marveled at how Manila society turned up for Daddy Oro’s funeral when they had almost nothing to do with their old “Blue Lady” friends during their Cambridge Circle days in Forbes Park. The stream of people lining up to pay their respects to Daddy Oro seemed endless, and so was his Mommy (viuda de) Oro’s energy. She was far from hysterical; in fact, she handled herself with impeccable composure. Goldilocks recognized none of them, even their professed relatives and other “close friends” of his father who shook his hand, offered their condolences, and gave him a naughty wink.

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Everybody knows, he thinks, not without a hint of amusement.

To be continued…

Ryan Robert Flores is a self-identified Bear. He has a Bachelor’s Degree in Business Administration, majoring in Marketing Management, and is currently working on a graduate degree, which he hopes would someday pay for TBRU, Lazy Bear Weekend, Provincetown Bear Week, Mad.Bear, and a leather sex sling that can support his weight (for, uh… research). A freelance graphic designer and photographer, he has worked with leading companies in different fields, but mostly in food (where else would a fat guy go?) by creating corporate branding and image development. A fastidious Grammar Nazi; a sure-fire way of driving him up the walls would be to say “For a while” (For a while, WHAT?), and other grammatical nightmares, without any proper context. He doesn’t like chocolate, despite being happily married to one who peddles it for a living for the past eleven years.

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My lovelife may have no direction, but my life has…

In a world obsessed with “finding the right one”, Gab Riel writes about the joys of singlehood; and about being alone but not being lonely.



By Gab Riel

Last night I was asked over a coffee by a friend why I do not have lovelife until now. It’s been three years since we became friends and wala pa din ako kwento sa lovelife ko kundi ‘yung flings lang, like I’m not really serious. Crush ko lang and that’s it.

Masyado daw akong pa-virgin and serious looking.

I asked: Bakit nga ba?

Is it because it’s not my priority?
Is it because I do not look for it?
Is it because I’m used to being single and alone?
Is it because I am not good looking and no one dares fall in love with me?
Is it because I am too busy with something?
Is it because I prioritize my health, my family and my career?
Is it because I enjoy traveling with friends than dating?
Is it because I feel bored easily?
Is it because I’m reaching my goal of savings and investment?
Is it because I am choosy?
Is it because I have high standards (Wow bes!)?
Is it because I am waiting for someone else?
Or is it because I am afraid to fall in love? Again?

Too many questions but all of the above are valid questions and mostly true.
I am just a 25 year old who doesn’t want to settle at early age. I am free and careless.

Sometimes I am jealous of other people with partners, yes, but that goes away in a matter of day. Sometimes I wish I have a partner today, but the next day I would be thankful again I never had.

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My lovelife has no direction, but my life has.

May mga tao na hindi nagagawa ang mga bagay na nagagawa mo because they are confined with the idea na lovelife is sapat na.

Pero life is not about lovelife, it is how you enjoy it.

Ganun talaga, may mga bagay na hindi para sayo dahil ginusto mo.

Sabi nga ng iba, di baleng walang lovelife; ang mahalaga nadidiligan.

Antay lang. Dont rush things.
Malay ko kung at the age of 30 doon pa lang darating.
May five years pa para mag-enjoy alone.

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Over a bottle of rosé…

Patrick King Pascual writes about finding love and then losing it – via the experience of Peter and Richard.




(While Yumeji’s Theme was playing)

His heart was pounding hard when he opened the door. He was greeted with a smile. He never thought that moment would come.

It was half past one in the morning and it was a Sunday.

They went inside his house and stayed in the balcony.

It was the first week of September.

His name is Peter. His friends knew him as a devoted and passionate person.

He was very excited and nervous. Every time their eyes would meet, he would respond to it with a smile.

Richard, on the other hand, is known to be caring and sweet in his own ways.

They shared stories, laughed at each other’s jokes, and flirted in between. He wanted to hold his hand, feel his skin closer to him – but every time he moves closer, a creeping feeling takes over.

Around three in the morning, they decided to end the night.

As they walked out of his house, Richard following very close behind him, he stopped. “Am I going to see you again?” Peter asked. Richard stepped closer to him and answered, “Why not?”

His heart was pounding hard again. He turned and faced him, and gave him a smile. They were just staring at each other. For a moment, it seemed like a scene lifted from a movie.

Peter’s face moved closer to Richard. Their lips met. Without saying a word or moving a muscle, they kissed. It was a slow kiss. It was a long and passionate.

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He removed Richard’s glasses. Maybe, to better see his face. Then, they kissed again.

They first met when Peter attended a gathering with his old friends. He was running late and had to leave to early. He felt a bit uncomfortable when he arrived. A few minutes passed, he asked if anyone from the group smokes. Richard, who was with one of his fiends, responded, “I do.”

They went out of the café. He introduced himself to Richard as he puffed on his cigarette. Their initial meeting was brief, but he knew he wanted to know him more. After two sticks and uncomfortable stares from his friends, he asked for his number. They went back inside. After a quick group photo, he left.

Present time. The following evening came. Peter messaged Richard. He can still feel his kiss. It was a memorable one, he said.

Richard arrived at his place half past 12 in the morning.

They went straight to his room and picked up where they left off.

The kiss was longer than the previous night. It felt like it was more passionate, has more meaning, Peter recalled.

They went all the way. They both wanted it to happen. It was intense.

“We might get used to this,” Richard whispered. Peter responded with a kiss.

For a moment, they were just staring at each other, still in bed and naked. He wanted to capture all the details of his face in his mind.

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The night ended with Peter giving Richard a tight hug. Richard leaned forward and gave him a kiss.

Peter waited for Richard for five years.

Ever since Richard moved to New Jersey, they consistently exchanged Skype and Viber messages. They, sort of, continued where they left off when they first met.

On Wednesday, Peter went to his house. He gave him a small cake. Maybe it was just an excuse to see him.

Then on Thursday, Edward went to Peter’s house. They stayed in the balcony again. Peter opened a bottle of rosé and a small pack of truffle cheese.

The Script was playing on his phone. He was surprised that the he also knew the words. After a sip and a slice, he noticed they were unconsciously singing together.

And then the strings of Yumeji’s Theme started. Peter walked towards Richard. He took his hand and pulled him closer to his body. Slowly they danced together.

Everything was in slow motion. The music seemed endless. He held his body tighter and laid his head on his chest. It was euphoric.

It was a poignant moment for Peter. He was not sure if Richard felt the same. But he knew what happened was not a knee-jerk reaction.

Richard was scheduled to go back to New Jersey the following week. It was a bittersweet moment for him. He missed his family and friends in Manila, but he needed to go back to fix his citizenship application.

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They had not seen each other for several days. Richard and his family went to Davao. But they continued to message each other.

When Richard got back, he stayed home because he felt sickly. Probably he was too tired after the trip.

They were supposed to meet the following night, Richard’s last night in Manila. But Richard’s friends surprised him with a party.

Peter did not reply to his messages.

The following morning, hours before Richard’s flight, Peter received a message.

“I’m on my way to the airport now.”

Peter replied: “Take care.” Then he sent another message, “I’m annoyed because we did not get to see each other before you leave.”

“I guess, I’m not sure, it is better that way. At least we won’t be thinking too much,” Richard answered back.

He was mad. He was sad. He was pissed off.

Richard has been in a relationship with his partner for three years now. Peter is also in a serious relationship with his longtime partner.

Maybe, what happened, they just picked up where they left off when they first met.

“Take care all the time. And always smile,” Richard messaged Peter.

Peter replied, “Yakap :(“

Theirs is not (yet) a love story. At least not the type you were hoping it to be.

But it was something real.

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Ikaw ay isang bahaghari

Evangeline Grace writes about being part of the rainbow life, stressing “kung pinagtatawanan ka ng mundo, Dahil hindi ka lang basta bughaw at kulay rosas, Itaas mo lang ang iyong noo… Dahil lahat ng bahaghari ay matatagpuan sa langit.”



Ni Evangeline Grace

Ikaw ay isang bahaghari.

Hindi sinasabi rito
Kung ano ang nasa pagitan
Ng iyong mga hita
O kung gaano katangkad
O kaliit ang umbok
Sa iyong dibdib.

Hindi hinuhusgahan
Kung tinutubuan ka ng buhok—
Ng bigote o balbas
O kung malago ang nasa binti
At nakatago sa kilikili
Walang panghuhusga sa kung ano’ng mayroon ka.

Hindi ka pipigilan
Kung ang gusto mo ay mag pantalon
O kung mas gusto mo ang palda,
Ang maluluwang na damit
O ang masisikip na nagpapakita pa lalo
Sa hubog ng iyong katawan.

Hindi nito tinutukoy
Kung ipinanganak kang may tatak ng mga kulay:
Kung dapat ay bughaw ka lang
O kung dapat ay kulay rosas ka lang.
Walang sa’yo ay maaaring tumukoy

Pagkat ikaw ay isang bahaghari.

Hindi ka lang bughaw
O kulay rosas
O puti o itim.
Hindi kailanman dapat limitahan
Ng iba o ng mismong iyong tahanan
Ang kaya mong gawin.

Isa kang bahaghari.

Puwede kang maging kahit ano
O kahit sino na iyong gustuhin.
Tinatakan ka bilang bughaw,
Pero maaari kang mamuhay at gumalaw
Sa kahit anong kulay
Na gusto mong abutin.

Puwede kang maging kahit ano
O kahit sino na iyong gustuhin.
Tinatakan ka bilang kulay rosas,
Pero maaari kang mamuhay at gumalaw
Sa kahit anong kulay
Na gusto mong marating.

Ikaw ay isang bahaghari.
Huwag kang palilimita
Sa iisang kulay o dadalawa.
Maaari kang maging pula,
kahel, dilaw, o berde
Puwede kang maging bughaw,
Indigo o lila

Kung kulang pa para sa’yo
Ang pitong kulay sa harap mo,
Paghalu-haluin natin
Ang pula sa indigo
O ang berde sa kahel

Huwag kang palilimita
Dahil hindi iisa ang kulay
Na maaari mong pagpilian.
Kung pinagtatawanan ka ng mundo
Dahil hindi ka lang basta bughaw at kulay rosas,
Itaas mo lang ang iyong noo…

Dahil lahat ng bahaghari
Ay matatagpuan sa langit.

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Kahel at Bughaw

Jerome Cleofas contributes a literary piece that tells the love/life story of a gay man and his straight best friend. Here is also the link of the recording of the song, “Kahel at Bughaw”.



Music and Lyrics by Jerome Cleofas

Ang taglay niyang kulay ay bughaw
At sa kakisigan niya ako’y napukaw
Ako nama’y kahel na marikit, isang baluktot na yagit
Na hindi maituwid kahit ano’ng ipilit
Musmos pa lang nang kami’y magkalaro
At sa mga kalaba’y ‘di sumuko
At kahit na ako’y sinasaktan, dahil ‘di pangkaraniwan
Sabi ni bughaw ako ay kaibigan, at siya ang aking pananggalang
At mula noo’y ibinigay ang puso ko
Sa isang pangarap na hindi magkakatotoo
Dahil ako’y isang kahel na ligaw
Na umiibig sa isang bughaw
At noong kami’y magbinata
Sa aki’y meron siyang pinakilala
Isang babaeng marikit, na maganda at mabait
Kaya si bughaw kay pula naakit
At sa altar siya’y naghintay
Sa babaeng aalayan niya ng buhay
Ako nama’y naro’n lang sa tabi, nakangiti kahit masakit
Ngunit ang makita siya na maligaya, ay sapat na upang ako ay sumaya
Dahil sa kanya pa rin tumitibok ang puso ko
Siya ang tanging pangarap kong hindi nagkatotoo
Ngayon ako’y isang kahel na uhaw
Na umiibig sa isang bughaw
At ang mga tao’y lumipas na
Siya ay nagkapamilya at ako’y tumandang mag-isa
Sa huling hibla ng aking buhay
Si bughaw sa aki’y naka akay
Sabi niya kahel kong marikit, sa palad mo nakaguhit
Ang pangakong ako ang ‘yong kaibigan, nandito lang ako kailan pa man
At hindi ko man ibinigay ang puso ko
Sabay naman nating tinupad ang mga pangarap mo
Salamat kahel at hindi ka bumitaw
Salamat, nagmamahal, bughaw

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Living the story of ‘The Rich Man’s Daughter’

Watching ‘The Rich Man’s Daughter’, Gee Cruz said it is like watching her life unfold. “We met extremely late. She is already married. This is a fact that we have to endure. For three months we are free to fly into each other’s arms, and then her rightful husband returns and stays for one month,” she says. “To subject ourselves in uncertainty, to sacrifice, to be invisible, to be silent, to look at each other from both ends of the table – to show love without saying it is the only way we know how to.”



It is as if I am watching parts of my life unfold in front of me every night whenever I tune in to a local channel showing a series about lesbian love. I cannot remember the last time I have been so eager to go home after work just to watch a local TV series until they started showing The Rich Man’s Daughter. I would finish dinner in 10 minutes, take a quick shower, head to my room and dial a number until the person on the end of the line says “hello.”

We met online last year. After a few months she decided to visit Manila so we could finally see each other in person. After our very oriental dinner, we went out on another date before flying back to her hometown. That same night, we decided to be a couple.

I had a disclaimer. She knew from the very beginning how my other relationships started and ended (and this is something I am not very proud of). I made her understand what she is getting herself into, and all she said was very clear, “let me love you.” Simple as that.

Life would have been a lot easier if things were that simple. Nothing is. Both of us are closeted lesbians. She is from a Chinese family, and I am keeping my true sexual orientation because I know how dismayed my family would be. Although we are a very discreet couple, we have plenty of lesbian and gay friends who know about us. We feel the need to be with them on a regular basis because it is when we are with them when we can be a couple – when we could introduce ourselves as girlfriends and not us friends.

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The distance between us engages us in a long distance relationship. We still feel fortunate that only islands and regions separate us, and not continents and time zones. Still, we face challenges such as compromising our wake up times to be able to talk to each other before going to work and before we sleep. Facetime dates are reserved for special occasions, e.g. birthdays, Christmas, New Year, while a beach trip, et cetera. Video calls provide the sense of togetherness whenever we want to watch the sunset.

Unlike other couples who spend their money on weekly dates, we spend ours on plane tickets and hotels for our trysts. These are activities we look forward to every month because the feeling of sleeping beside each other gives us the most serene and comforting sleep. For us, airports mean two things: arrivals and departures, hellos and see you laters.

We met extremely late. She is already married. This is a fact that we have to endure. It is an open secret. Something that our friends know, but never talk about. Maybe nobody is brave enough to ask about it. For three months we are free to fly into each other’s arms, and then her rightful husband returns and stays for one month. Our communications lessened, making it even harder to endure our already complicated status. She married not because of any romantic connection. She married because it was a request from her elders.

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There are times when I would agree to have dinner with them, husband and wife, thinking if it goes on a regular basis, I would get used to the stabbing pain until I get numb. One day it will just be us. There will come a time when we will sit on a dining table and we do not have to hold hands under.

She told me to let her love me. I said: “I don’t know how to love like how others would love.” She said that it is enough to let her love me. To subject ourselves in uncertainty, to sacrifice, to be invisible, to be silent, to look at each other from both ends of the table – to show love without saying it is the only way we know how to.

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Quick Romance Now

Eugene O. Azucena pens an ode for ERN.



By Eugene O. Azucena

The last straw of daylight
riding through the waves–
romance in sight.

The humping
of light and sea
create high waves–splashing.

The sounds turn louder

Rolling and cuddling,
Until it reaches the shore

losing the light slowly,
and slowly.

Signalling calm and peace.
Attracting serenity
and bliss.

Reaching ashore, they iron the sands
Their last cry–
Their final dance.

Leaving stones awash,
and shells,
and trash.

Light, alas, leaves.
The sea continues its dance

The sounds and embraces have gone–
Romancing itself
Swimming on its own.

Waiting for the next–
To start fresh.

It’s now dark
At the other end,
Pray light may unbend.

The pain
Of longing,
the sorrow of losing

Light never really left,
Only circling to come back;
Make up for time bereft.

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