That he can maybe help, but he chooses not to help. Supposedly to “protect” his regular “buddies” (in this sense, those he regularly does drugs with, or he regularly invites for his partees, or drug-induced sexual gatherings); fuck the non-regulars. And so, no, he won’t provide a link to the alleged partee-goers; not even to save those they influenced to use drugs, and continue to literally and figuratively inject with drugs to make them addicted and, yes, dependent on these parter-goers.
As background: I was looking for ways to talk to the addicted partee- and fuckmates of my partner.
No, no, no… I had (or have) no plan to scandalize them; or at least not yet.
Instead, I really just want(ed) to talk to them; perhaps to reason with them – i.e. that their drug use is THEIR issue, but at least don’t drag others with them.
And this search for them led me to Nilo (not his real name), this quite known “orgynizer”, who organizes orgies/sex parties for men who have sex with men (MSM), often with drugs involved. He’d been doing this for years already. I knew of him from way, way back… and yet I still see him in Romeo and Telegram, among others.
Here’s what’s interesting for me: Nilo does NOT even need to link me with my partner’s parteemate/s. He could just tell them himself – i.e. tell them to help those who want to stop by NOT inviting them anymore. They could save lives, literally. But even on this, Nilo was just not interested.
And talking to him, hearing him spew his supposedly good-intentioned decision not to help a mediator (i.e. myself) to make someone stop using drugs altogether, the thought hit me like a strong slap in the face: Addicts can be the worst enemies of those who want to quit.
Various thoughts entered my mind…
These addicts do not really care about the damage, the pain they inflict on others.
So long as they can continue the drug-induced fun… preferably with those they influenced to be with them. None of them care about the damages done by their mere invitation for people to join them to use drugs – e.g. not the hospitalization that has happened due to drug use, not the loss of jobs, not the fights with family members, not the fights with partners, et cetera. For these addicts, misery (sugarcoated as “fun” while the high is experienced) truly loves company.
These addicts “protect” their vested interests… not other people.
Nilo has sources… and he supposedly gets discounts when others are linked to these sources. This is how this worsens…
These addicts make sure they have “hold” on people.
I know, for instance, that videos were shot in some of Nilo’s partees. So much so that my partner said he’s “expecting for a video or two of myself while with them to come out… any time now.” This has become a “tool”, if you will, to “control” him. And so when they message him, he is expected to drop whatever it is he’s doing and rush to their side, or else…
An addict once told me that I’ll never understand what they’re going through, and that “only an addict will truly comprehend what’s happening in an addict’s life.”
Perhaps.
But I say that being an addict does not automatically mean you fully understand what another addict is going through. Because your intentions may diverge – e.g. he already wants to quit, and you just want him to be hooked on drugs with you. And in such an instance, addicts become other addicts’ worst enemies…
